May 30, 2023 Wow, time goes fast and things change on a dime (but cost a LOT of dollars!). My dear daughter is halfway to 30 years old, alive and healthy, and somewhat stable. She doesn’t talk to me much, but there’s been no falling out or anything earth-shattering (that I’m aware of). That’s not to say she hasn’t had her issues and pissed me off here and there. Job: She got a job 7 months ago at a software…
9/18/2018 So one day I got a text message from my daughter that she would “answer all my questions,” but used some cryptic wording that got under my skin. I have a lot of questions for and about her on a regular basis, but in the interest in keeping a relationship, however thin, I hold back. Because one of the words she used was “rough,” I got nervous and couldn’t take it, so I called her. And she answered! She…
5/23/2018 I have to use fake names here so it doesn’t sound like I’m telling a story to 2nd graders. Big sister Mary recently visited little sister Alice for a few days in her new city. I was aware it was happening, naturally from Mary. I was so nervous because I don’t want Mary to be hurt or disappointed, which has happened over and over again when she’s tried to reach out and have a “normal” sister relationship. I warned…
1/29/2018 The worst part, and this is so terrible, is that she even lied about who she stayed with when she came home. Her sister ratted on her, so this is how I know, but I have to pretend not to know, which is emotionally painful and makes me physically ill. She cheated on her inappropriate boyfriend with her old boyfriend, whom I used to like, but now has learned to treat her like shit because she allows it. She…
9/8/2017 Have to write something or I’ll burst. It’s just amazing how things change from day to day. Yesterday I had a jumble of emotions and could hardly keep them in check. Thank heaven I had colonics yesterday, or it all would’ve been backed up to my ribcage. Speaking of colonics, I do have a problem with my system (stress, medication, age, genetics, stress, stress, anxiety, stress) so every once in a while I get cleaned out. I skipped a…
5/10/2016 I’m taking a break from my daughter for a while. I don’t know how long that while will be, but I just about can’t handle her anymore. I can’t really tell anyone because they just won’t understand and will probably judge me as a failure as a mother, so I’m limited to this blog. I’m feeling grateful that I had the forethought to do this when my disappointments and despair first began. As I may have mentioned, she’s planning…
8/1/2013 Both daughters have been asked to be bridesmaids in their cousin’s wedding (dad’s side), which is a lovely honor. Their dad is responsible for getting them to another state for the nuptials—flight, hotel, and all that stuff. He hasn’t been a problem for me and we are amicable with each other, so I don’t mind when he texts me to get information about their e-mail addresses or phone numbers or dates they’re available or whatnot. I know they don’t always…
7/25/2013 I have not seen my daughter since that last time when I realized how skinny she was. I seldom hear from her, and if I call, I don’t get a call back. I don’t know what’s going on with her, and I don’t get answers to my questions (you can’t if they don’t talk to you). She has sent nice text messages telling me how much she loves me and will make up all this lost time. She’ll even…
12/21/2012 After writing that last post and knowing I need to know what I don’t want to know, I searched for arrest records for my throwing-away-her-life daughter. I found her mugshot first. Since this is really new business for me, I first examined the picture to see if she looked remorseful. To my relief, she didn’t look rebellious, she looked really upset, even a little scared. I though she actually looked beautiful—too beautiful to be on a mugshot page with…
1/10/2012 I’m very proud of my formerly troubled daughter. She is just like her mother and older sister in that she has a tremendous work ethic and strives to excel. Here’s some of the compliments, stats, and accolades she’s forwarded to me in the last few months. This is a good foundation for her future and tells me she really is my real child! After a collection phone call, a customer asked to speak to my daughter’s manager. This is…