Motherhood is a trip . . . are we there yet?
I have so many thoughts swimming in my head. Some have to do with my children, but most don’t, though they’re always a factor in my anxiety. In a stream of consciousness: First: My husband had a big meltdown this morning. He’s overwhelmed with pressure and disappointment, and I don’t blame him one bit. He…
A few weeks ago, I sent my formerly troubled teen turned estranged adult daughter a text to let her know her yoga membership that I’d been paying for would expire at the end of the month. After being ignored about everything else, it was just a one liner stating the facts. There was no emotion…
Where am I today? In some ways, I’m in a very good place with my relationship with each daughter. My older daughter and I have gotten back to our close bond and even took a trip together recently. It was the first time I’d seen her since Mothers Day weekend, eight months ago. We used…
It’s now been four and a half months since my younger daughter has spoken a single word to me, and other than a weird phone call, three months for my older daughter. I’ve joined some Facebook groups for people experiencing estrangement and, while it provides some comfort knowing that I’m not alone, my membership doesn’t…
Time is moving fast, and I don’t know where to go. I’m literally lost. I thought by now I’d have come to terms with my new fate, but I’m falling deeper and deeper into a confused depression. I don’t know what to do or who to turn to. My husband is a good listener, but…
Even though both children have cut me off, I do have to say that my older daughter is blossoming in her career and her future. She is adding credentials and skills to her CV, and is understanding life and what it means to make future plans. She had money in the bank, gets regular GYN…
12/10/2021 I’ve been reading through my posts from over the years, and I see some disturbing patterns both in myself and my daughter. No matter how old she is, and she’s two days away from 28 years old, she has a fully orchestrated routine. In the last year and a half, she’s definitely matured, so…
2/6/2019 Today is Wednesday and if it weren’t for being busy at work with so many nice people, I’d probably be crying in the corner somewhere. It’s hard to concentrate or give a shit about my work, but I’m 55 and have learned to fake it like a pro. I’m a great phony smiler and…
12/4/2017 It’s too bad that my daughter is having such a tough time finding a good job. She had a pretty good thing here, even if it wasn’t that high paying. We thought for sure her skills would translate into something equally good, but it’s been two months and she’s only been offered a warehouse…
9/11/2017 I’ve said recently that I wish my daughter would just move away so I could breathe. She’s been talking about moving out of state for a very long time, but she decided to just do it. Not think too much, just go. Like within the month. She’s plotting and planning, updating her resume and…