Motherhood is a trip . . . are we there yet?
I have so many thoughts swimming in my head. Some have to do with my children, but most don’t, though they’re always a factor in my anxiety. In a stream of consciousness: First: My husband had a big meltdown this morning. He’s overwhelmed with pressure and disappointment, and I don’t blame him one bit. He…
June 18, 2025 My older daughter, on the other hand, had warmed up a little, and we had some nice conversations, all with me initiating contact. But here’s the turn of events with her: I’m in my summer home now, where I’m trying to relax and enjoy myself. A lot of our time revolves around…
6/18/2025 Well, it’s official. My children are done with me. I’m stunned and heartbroken, but I’m doing whatever I can to handle it and live my life. After not doing too much of a chase & beg, I was able to feel a little back to normal with my older daughter, while my younger one…
2/13/2019 My troubled daughter (I still habitually label her this way) is back in town and I’ve been ruminating over this new situation. She arrived two days ago after driving 1,500 miles straight through with her location services on but turned them off as soon as she got to her boyfriend’s house. I received one text to…
9/18/2018 So one day I got a text message from my daughter that she would “answer all my questions,” but used some cryptic wording that got under my skin. I have a lot of questions for and about her on a regular basis, but in the interest in keeping a relationship, however thin, I hold…
1/29/2018 The worst part, and this is so terrible, is that she even lied about who she stayed with when she came home. Her sister ratted on her, so this is how I know, but I have to pretend not to know, which is emotionally painful and makes me physically ill. She cheated on her…
12/4/2017 My daughter has been in her new city for about two months now and I’ve softened my anger toward her about the way she left the condo. If you read my last post or two, you’ll learn that she used to live in a property my husband and I own and trusted her with….
9/8/2017 Have to write something or I’ll burst. It’s just amazing how things change from day to day. Yesterday I had a jumble of emotions and could hardly keep them in check. Thank heaven I had colonics yesterday, or it all would’ve been backed up to my ribcage. Speaking of colonics, I do have a…
9/6/2017 Yesterday was a letter day; today is a journal day. I’m feeling so many feelings over my formerly troubled teen—and now confounding adult—daughter. I need to express those feelings or I’ll cry and one of my coworkers will ask me what’s wrong and I’ll be embarrassed and my makeup will run and I’ll want…
5/10/2016 I’m taking a break from my daughter for a while. I don’t know how long that while will be, but I just about can’t handle her anymore. I can’t really tell anyone because they just won’t understand and will probably judge me as a failure as a mother, so I’m limited to this blog….