Motherhood is a trip . . . are we there yet?
Where am I today? In some ways, I’m in a very good place with my relationship with each daughter. My older daughter and I have gotten back to our close bond and even took a trip together recently. It was the first time I’d seen her since Mothers Day weekend, eight months ago. We used…
You’ve gotta be kidding me. I thought I was on an upswing with my older daughter after a few agonizing months of silence. Starting with my birthday a few weeks ago, we’d been texting back and forth, and it was, if nothing else, pleasant. It seemed we were on the mend from the setup in…
Time is moving fast, and I don’t know where to go. I’m literally lost. I thought by now I’d have come to terms with my new fate, but I’m falling deeper and deeper into a confused depression. I don’t know what to do or who to turn to. My husband is a good listener, but…
What is estrangement? Estrangement is defined as the state of being alienated or separated from someone with whom one was once close or had a strong emotional connection. It often refers to the breakdown of a relationship, such as within families, friendships, or partnerships, leading to a loss of communication, understanding, or affection. In my…
June 18, 2025 My older daughter, on the other hand, had warmed up a little, and we had some nice conversations, all with me initiating contact. But here’s the turn of events with her: I’m in my summer home now, where I’m trying to relax and enjoy myself. A lot of our time revolves around…
12/10/2021 I’ve been reading through my posts from over the years, and I see some disturbing patterns both in myself and my daughter. No matter how old she is, and she’s two days away from 28 years old, she has a fully orchestrated routine. In the last year and a half, she’s definitely matured, so…
4/5/2021 That’s right. My formerly troubled daughter lost her 58-year-old father right after Valentine’s Day 2021. He died from a heart attack as he arrived home from the gym. It’s enormously heartbreaking. I’m even sad even though I haven’t seen him or talked to him for so many years. My daughters’ already complicated and confusing…
2/6/2019 Today is Wednesday and if it weren’t for being busy at work with so many nice people, I’d probably be crying in the corner somewhere. It’s hard to concentrate or give a shit about my work, but I’m 55 and have learned to fake it like a pro. I’m a great phony smiler and…
1/30/2019 I really want to start writing uplifting posts about my daughter, but the opportunity just hasn’t arisen. I talked to my daughter today, but my heart is even more barren than before. I’ve been calling my daughter at the weekly time, with the assumption that she probably won’t answer, but this week was a…
9/18/2018 So one day I got a text message from my daughter that she would “answer all my questions,” but used some cryptic wording that got under my skin. I have a lot of questions for and about her on a regular basis, but in the interest in keeping a relationship, however thin, I hold…