Motherhood is a trip . . . are we there yet?
It’s amazing how one frustration builds on the last until you’re ready to blow. I can’t think of an emotion more difficult to deal with, and it seems that’s all I feel lately. I have no patience for anything, and I find myself yelling into the void all day long. Whether it’s dropping the soap…
Dear girls, I hope this letter finds you both healthy, happy, and thriving, wherever your individual and collective paths are taking you. This isn’t meant to intrude, nor to ask anything of you, but simply to reach out with honesty as your mother. I’m sending this message to both of you on purpose. Maybe you’ll…
Time is moving fast, and I don’t know where to go. I’m literally lost. I thought by now I’d have come to terms with my new fate, but I’m falling deeper and deeper into a confused depression. I don’t know what to do or who to turn to. My husband is a good listener, but…
Though I’m getting used to the silence, I must admit, my heart is still broken. You wouldn’t know it by my words or how I manage to navigate my days, but the heaviness is always there. One day last week, it was literal. I honestly thought I was having a heart attack, but it was…
What is estrangement? Estrangement is defined as the state of being alienated or separated from someone with whom one was once close or had a strong emotional connection. It often refers to the breakdown of a relationship, such as within families, friendships, or partnerships, leading to a loss of communication, understanding, or affection. In my…
Even though both children have cut me off, I do have to say that my older daughter is blossoming in her career and her future. She is adding credentials and skills to her CV, and is understanding life and what it means to make future plans. She had money in the bank, gets regular GYN…
June 18, 2025 My older daughter, on the other hand, had warmed up a little, and we had some nice conversations, all with me initiating contact. But here’s the turn of events with her: I’m in my summer home now, where I’m trying to relax and enjoy myself. A lot of our time revolves around…
6/18/2025 Well, it’s official. My children are done with me. I’m stunned and heartbroken, but I’m doing whatever I can to handle it and live my life. After not doing too much of a chase & beg, I was able to feel a little back to normal with my older daughter, while my younger one…
3/6/25 Since posting last, a lot has changed in our lives. My older daughter broke up with her long-time boyfriend and moved on to someone new, my sister is in a serious relationship for two years or so now, my niece and nephew are no longer children, and my younger daughter has not only quit…
February 1, 2024It’s a brand-new year and I’ve been meaning to write something new for a while, but have been sidetracked by my own shit and unrest. Happily, though, my formerly troubled daughter is making me so very proud. Every day, I feel prouder and prouder, and worry less and less.